Well, there are many things I need to resolve about myself for the new year, and one of them is making it a point to visit here more often. I've just been cruising around lately, and I realized just how much I've been missing all the awesome work all over this site, and I need to be keeping caught up.

Now, this doesn't mean I'll be posting anything (but who knows when inspiration will strike!), but I will be trying to keep up with my DevWatch at least!

Ben

Hey everybody. I want to first apologize for not posting/hardly reading in the past three months. I've been hella busy with making sure I graduate, and trying to find a job. Not to mention my creative spark has completely died. I'd like to take this time to thank everyone on DA. You all have helped me through the hard times, and come to grips with who I am, and what I need to be. Thanks for all the comments on my work as well, and thanks for giving me so much incredible work to look at/read. I am not officially closing this though, as who knows when I will be feeling creative again . If you want to keep in touch, I got a LJ at [link] and hopefully I'll keep that updated. Everybody, take care and thanks again!!!

Funny how this world works. posts the following poem:
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exactly one year to the day of the events in my life which inspired this work:
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in other things: The Snowball (Gettysburg College's annual winter formal) was Friday night. It was a nice night, got to meet some poeple I haven't seen in over a year, and I got to act like a dancin' fool for a few hours. It didn't live up to the past few Snowballs, but then, it would have been hard for it to

Still hunting jobs, with little to no success, but I shall keep on pluggin' away!!

I am slowly being able to get the thoughts flowing, but I don't think anything shall come to being until Spring Break at the earliest, unless life presents me with drama. And being that February is nearing conclusion, drama is almost a sure thing; for me at least.

Well, everyone out there take care!

Ben

Well, today is Valentine's day. Not the best day of the year for guys and girls like myself. However, I cannot rightly hate this holiday as much as I would want too. THis came to me as I was reading an away message of someone I talk to every now and then:

Valentine's Day is all about celebrating the love in your life, no matter what form it is in. Spend it with a loved one: your mom, your dog, your boy/girlfriend, or just your amazing friends. It does not have to mean extreme sappy romance, just care and love. So this Valentine's Day, don't sulk just because there may not be that one special someone, celebrate because of all the love that surrounds you.

This is so true. I think a lot of us do miss the point of what Valentine's day is. It's extremely easy to miss the point thanks to the media and corportate america making this into an over-sappy holiday about giving gifts to your boy/girlfriend or husband/wife. Not that there is anything wrong with it. It's just that us who are on the outside looking in on the game of love may want to step back and take a better look at V-day.

Well, I'm out for now. Everybody take care, and to everybody out there, Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

Ben

Hey all. Sorry about the lack of journals/postings. It's just been a busy week for me. I think the most important thing is that I'm feeling better than I dd this time last week

I think I realized the cause of the lack of my inspiration as well. I seem to be able to write my best stuff when I can get outside at night. Somethign that's hard to do in the winter!

I have to give most of the credit to the retreat I was on this weekend. It was great to spend a weekend in God's grace, and truly experience the healing that religion can have, both physically and mentally.

I know Valentine's day is coming up *slight grumble* but with a few things going on, possibly haning out with a female friend (not a date) I think I can survive. The Winter formal is in two weeks, I'm not too concerned about that for some reason. Who knows why...

Job search: not so hot, as I'm having atough time findng jobs that I'm not under or over qualified to have. Communication with CS professors is onthe horizon I believe.

Not much more to say..but: later all!!
Ben